Mood: in pain
Listening to: 
"What Hurts The Most" by Rascal Flatts
Reading: nothing
Watching: "Space Balls" lol xD don't ask >_>
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~Gawd, it's been forever since I've journaled or put up a piccy... Well umm.. abotu my life. To put it frankly, it didn't get any better -_-; it got worse. Keith played with my head some more, finally did dump Rina and more happened that I REALLY don't wanna talk about and would rather forget it. And during all that, I didn't wanna tell anyone, I stopped eating. I also stopped going to the commons before school, going to lunch, and did everything possible to avoid my friends for weeks. I even, as you know, stopped posting on DA. And in result I've lossed watchers! ;_; *cries and clings* PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME! ....
My friends got concerned and informed the counciler who talked to me about my eating problem. The deal was that if I started making an effort she wouldn't tell my mom. So I went to her the next week when we planned and I haven't seen her since. I'm hoping she'll forget all about me cuz 1) I don't need her help, 2) I know the symtoms of not eating, 3) everything she tells me I already know and 4) I really don't care. Though I have made and effort to eat enough so I'm not week all the time like I was. Someone got really worried about me and I didn't want him to worry anymore... More stuff has happened. New guy came into my life, turned out a lie, I can understand and try to look at the good side, I stopped coming to lunch due to this guy, stopped hanging out with Aki during 9th hour and playing video games ;_; I LOVE THE GAMES! xD talked things out with Rina, I'm friends with her again. but not much, I guess there's still something between us, that gap will never be filled. Sadens me to think that things will never be what they once were. and now it's Spring Break, and every time I become happy, something has to come up about the one guy or Keith or Aki and I fall back down. -_-;;; I keep fucking up in life and refuse to tell anyone how I feel and how I'm doing...so that's why I'm journaling >_>
well I hope you're all doing well. I'm trying to get drawing more and become more active online. I guess I lost my love for the whole thing ;_; There's no point in it, but it something I love to do, so ya. Stick with me please? so I edited the list below added more info on each object and how far I've actually gotten.
OH!! and I almost forgot... I'm in pain *points to "Mood:"* because recently I've been having stabbing chest pains. I had blood drawn Friday, WHOO I started my spring break a day early! xD and then today I went to the hospital where they did an EKG(sp?) and X-rays. So they're tryign to figure out what the hell it is. I just hope it's not fatal! I don't wanna die! ;_; *clings to life*
Images I Need to Work On
1) I'll Be The One- Commision for Kiki-chan
-fully inked on nice clean paper, waiting to be colored
2) Dragon Gift for Aki-chan
-inked, colored, needs to be scanned
3) Take My Hand- Dedicated piccy
-haven't even drawn it! xD
4) Regrets- piccy
-penciled on note-book paper, waiting to be scanned and edited
5) Kyo piccy-present for Bleep-chan
-haven't even drawn it! opps! ^-^;
6) Harry Potter piccy-present for
-have it sketched but I dont' like it so I'm gonna re-draw it
7) Just One Night- piccy, AND DON'T EVEN SAY ANYTHING AKI! xD
-penciled on note-book paper, waiting to be scanned and edited
8) Afraid- dedicated piccy
-started editing
9) Kenichi piccy-present for
-haven't started >< sorry! I'm trying to get an idea >_>
10) Someone Save Me- Dedicated piccy for
-penciled on note-book paper, waiting to be scanned and edited
And there's a hell of a lot more stuff I need to work on, I'll add more to the list as I get rid of some of the list! ^_^
Otaku Stars and Hosted Sites
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Otaku Stars:don't even ask. I made a new layout and everything and I really have no idea where I'm gonna go from there. I'll have to re-buy a domain and renew my file space ><
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Beneath Her Wings: Been put on hold due to my sad pathetic life xD
What would u do if I...
But never mind him, I'm starting to feel sick thinking about it x_x .... I started learning how to drive! ^_______^ It's so exciting!!!!! 
but my X-step-dad(used to be my step dad, but no longer cuz of divorce) is teaching me cuz my mom says she doesn't have the patients with me! XD She was right cuz my first time out driving I came who knows how close to backing up into a car! And then I tend to speed and step on the brakes too hard! Well it's not my fault the gas pedal and brakes are too sensitive >_> But ya, my life is getting better slowly...
